ok so I have 5,869 new images and storys, I've been deleting some everytime I come online but that's still a lot.

A little about what's being going on lately.

So I like bbws,pregnant women inflation and most of all stuffing/force feeding.

but I have never told anyone, in fact I really don't want to like these kind of things, if anyone knows of any way to stop liking this kind of thing then please tell me...

It kills me when co workers comment on female customers being attractive and I don't share their enthusiasm or when people at college say someone's attractive when they are really skinny.

I want to be like them, and I want to be normal.

I genuinely feel disgusted that I am the way I am.

I find it quite shameful actually...

I'm 19 and I've never had a girlfriend, I recently thought this girl who I'd known for 2 years was attracted to me, she was skinny and I thought that when we were laying on my bed together that it was a date.. sine it was more intimate than what we normally do (she's never been to my house before).

We didn't even kiss... it's not that I wouldn't have dated her.. I would have, she was a great cover story to hide the truth.. and it wouldn't have been a problem, but it turns out that It was only a date in my head...

I honestly feel like giving up on relationships.. I don't have the option of dating a bbw or even someone chubby without facing ridicule from 99% of people.

I moved to England 2 months after that and I haven't spoken to her since, moving to England wasn't because of her, it was a career choice.. but I'm glad that I'm away from there, and college now.. and my old job...

In my new job I haven't really spoken to anyone for a prolonged period of time.. but I don't think this will be an opportunity to start being open about my fetish, I might be away from people who would have made fun of me before, and having my own place is liberating but.. I couldn't go through with dating a bbw, or even attempting to date anyone else.


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